Apathetic

Everything's so plain. Mood is so numbed and cold. ( could be due to the weather which contributes to this dreaded feelings,i wonder.) Monsoon season's peaking over here. Wet umbrellas,soaked feet, drops on the nettles, pitter-patter sound on the sooty rooftops. What could be more perfect then the time of the day to completely feel yourself being WASTED! I've been lazing around since dawn of like when? Don't ask.
You could even lock me up in a morgue and i'll still sleep soundly. Kissing a cadaver shouldn't raise and queries either. Apathetic as such.
Punched the wall till my fingers bruised but hey! Cutaneous nerves ain't giving me any signals of pain. Retarded bullshit on a stick. Lack of vocab? Try "fuck".

..Time to settle down. I'm just so over my apathetic feeling and i suddenly feel so good about this and AM motivated to work on my subjects! Yays to anatomy,physiology and biochemistry. Nice seeing you again after i left you out in the freezing dusty cloud of dust. In fact i feel so guilty over the hung over i felt my spirits drawn to the books which stacked in front of me. As if summouning me to read a chapter or two. I'm going to in meantime..will do it this time. While the world continues rotating and people fucking, i'll just have my cup of warm tea and study till the dawn shimmers again. Another day but a different day tomorrow. They wished.

After all the rants,i just feel so fucking good bay behh!!! Nobody will read this shit, i hope.